I Would Hold Up the Line
Mary Magdalene came heavy with sin. So did I. Confession is still the only way back to the God who says, “You’re never too much for Me.”
I have sinned. I have sinned. I have sinned.
I felt so heavy with sin. Like I would hold up the line at the Jordan River with it. As I got closer and closer to John the Baptist, I broke out in a sweat. John wanted us to confess our sins, but could I do it?
"Something was wrong with me. My emotions were not stable. I was one person one moment, and an entirely different person the next."
Something was wrong with me. My emotions were not stable. I was one person one moment, and an entirely different person the next. Happy, sad, mad all in a matter of minutes. Something wasn't right.
Finally, my moment came. John motioned me into the waters.
"Sir, I..."
"Shhhh. I don't need to hear it. God does. You are never too much for him. Simply tell it to God in silence. When you are done, tell me and I will dunk you in these waters. You will be clean."
Relief washed over me. In prayer, I went over every sin I could think of.
"What is your name, my child?"
"Mary Magdalene."
John held my nose and dipped me backwards into the water. Little did I know it would take a Savior more powerful, baptizing me in the Holy Spirit to truly set me free.
Reflection: I recently had to make my own confession. I was with a man whose circumstances were not right. And I had to admit it - to a bestie. And she straightened me right out. "This is not you, Damola. I've known you for 30 years. You know enough bible to know this isn't right." And...she was right.
"Sometimes a relationship feeds a grossly neglected ego or soothes a lonely ache."
But sometimes a relationship feeds a grossly neglected ego or soothes a lonely ache. It cost me, but I let him go and got off the dating apps. Because clearly I'm not healed enough not to be susceptible to toxicity. I must walk a path of healing.
This is one of the rawest entries I’ve written.
Because it’s not just hers—it’s mine too.
Mary Magdalene brought her shame into the Jordan.
I brought mine into a phone call with a friend who wouldn’t let me lie to myself.
This is what RedConfessional is about.
Scripture, yes. But also truth in the present tense.
If you’re walking through your own moment of confession—
read this.
Stay on the journey with me.
And maybe… share this with someone.
You know—that friend you've been trying to get to leave that toxic relationship?
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